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Je suis tres contente [20 Dec 2006|10:19pm]
Besides the work and the college bull, I am absolutely rockin.

"Every thing happens for a reason," as I have long since learned from one of my dearest friends; And now it's been ringing true more than ever and x10.

I'm going to eventually delete this thing, but only after I have the memories recorded.
I started this "live" journal with a reason, and have since found what I was looking for, but only now have I found out what I was really meant to learn.

I don't need this to keep in touch with people. I don't need it to show others whats up or down in my life. I don't need it to let people know who I am and what I'm all about. I don't need it to make friends, or keep them. Or 'update' them; because a real journal and AIM are better than livejournal, MSN is better than AIM, the phone is better than instant messaging, and seeing someone face to face is the best.

That's just how it goes.




Love,
me
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[09 Dec 2005|02:54pm]
Ahahhaha! Some people are just plain pieces of trash, and I think you know who you are.
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[14 Nov 2005|12:48pm]
I beat the mailman home today
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[13 Nov 2005|07:44pm]
I decided that I really hate men. And hangovers. And bronchitis.

the end
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MELLY! [25 Jan 2005|03:51pm]
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Winter [22 Jan 2005|01:50pm]
[ mood | content ]

If anyone's been wondering, I've been hibernating.

I havn't had to time to update, and I've been attempting to re-wire my creative outlet, so my stories end up as songs in my book instead of on here.

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[09 Dec 2004|09:02am]
[ mood | drained ]

Gahh, I'm in school in the libraire, waiting for the bell to ring. Fuck you Mr. Harris, I never want to go to your fucking class again.

Anyway, singing and guitar lessons tonight! Aahh, I have to practice!

I need to start getting some damn sleep because I'm so tired.

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[03 Dec 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | butterflies in the rain? ]

I just got back from Aaron's. We had a really good talk, so I'm glad that those things have been said and done... I need to spend more quality time with him, though it does seem like we're together all the time.. but we're really not, just we take advantage of seeing eachother in the halls for those split seconds and during lunch where it's just a bunch of douchebagery and goofiness, spazzing and laughing, and sometimes eating when either of us has money.

I hope things turn out for the better in every aspect of my life right now, because I'm working hard to move on up, but it's difficult and unstable when I begin to force myself to do and say things that I repeat in my head and promise myself.

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[30 Nov 2004|10:11am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Gahh, english class is so pointless! But I kind of like it anyway. It's better than math class, which I slept in today.

I havn't updated in ages, but I just am doing my laundry for the first time in a month and a half, literally. I found clothes in my hamper that I thought I must have lost because I havn't seen them in so long.
I'm also starting to catch up on all of my work, finally. I just have one more history assignment - that damn Jackson paper, which I need to add a bunch of shit to and edit before I turn it in.

I'm screwed - French test on Pierre et Jean, including an essay?! Ahhhh! I have to study like hell tonight, but I really need to get some fucking sleep and practice guitar.

I'm bored as Fuck

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What to do? [17 Nov 2004|01:05am]
[ mood | cynical ]

It's 1:05 am, and I'm still up and functioning. I need to eliminate this habit of feeling the need to stay up in order to do work, but never doing anything but fucking around.

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[16 Nov 2004|01:06am]
I'm failing life and it sucks. Don't do it man!!! And I don't remember writing that last short entry, but, heh, what can I say?

The Something Coorporate show was pretty cool.

I have problems.

I wish I could call my boyfriend, who's probably snoozing away the night. But I couldn't dare disturb him.
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[13 Nov 2004|09:46pm]
Aahh, where are you?? Why do they always dissapear when you miss them the most?
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I was listening to this when I read what you wrote... [11 Nov 2004|05:32pm]
For you, Katie:

When you're weary
Feeling small
When tears are near your eyes
I will dry them off

I'm on your side
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

When you're down and out
When you're on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you

I'll take your part
When darkness comes
And pain is all around
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

Sail on Silver Girl,
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way
See how they shine
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
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[11 Nov 2004|05:13pm]
[ mood | shitty ]

Sleeping all day is the strangest thing.

How did I manage to set my alarm for 11:30, then wake up at 10:30 to glance at the clock, then pass out until 4:53 to wake up in a panic once I see the time, and the fact that it's dark outside.

Well, I had to cancel my lessons because I already missed part of one, and I'm way to discombabulated and stressed to go to the other because of all of the homework that I have to do within these few precious hours. And now my dad just lectured me about how irresponsible I am and how the lessons are expensive.
So now I just feel stupid and worthless.

Oh well, that's soo new. What, am I supposed to get another alarm clock and set both of them, and take insomnia pills? Maybe.







p.s. If any one wants some Simon & Garfunkel, just let me know because my mom suprised me with the complete collection of S&G CDs. It's awesome.

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Well.... [08 Nov 2004|12:18am]
[ mood | worried ]

I havn't written a meaningful entry in the longest time. I havn't written in this thing for ages. For me fall is a happy time. Last fall was a stage in my life where I began to open up. Now it's happening all over again, exept I'm not completely insane and boy crazy. Well, ok. I'm insane and crazy about one boy, but that's way different. I'm enjoying the fact that there hasn't been any drama in my world for the longest time, ever. And I love it, because drama makes me want to puke.

I'm making new friends, and this is new for me because I'm usually sitting in the corner of a class not talking. Instead I've been attempting to socialize and skipping classes and doing fun shit, but I'm going to cut that out. After second period tomorrow :D Here I come, breakfast and stupendous amounts of coffee and diet coke with Aaron.

Another strange thing is that I'm really happy, but there's always something hanging over my head, and I don't know what it is. It's a bad feeling. It's kind of like I'm waiting for people to start talking shit about me, and start hating me. I wish that won't happen, but that's one of the reasons why I'm afraid of getting out there. I wish that people just don't do that. But it's inevitable. Why won't this fucking feeling go away? Well, I guess I still have a lot of things to worry about though. I have to watch out for my mom. It's her birthday on Tuesday, and I'm just worried about her. I'm also really stressed out with all of this fucking work that I have. It's been impossible to catch up after going to Australia for 2 weeks, and then being loaded with work during the week of West Side Story. I have strike tomorrow, and after that it's all over. It's a huge relief because crew just saps up your time like a sponge. I wish there was some way to perfect life, which for me would be being happy all the time. I wish I could let myself do that, but right now everything is clouded, and I can't seem to find the way out. Maybe that will come with time.

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[05 Nov 2004|03:08am]
[ mood | awake ]

So, I'm back from Australia. Everyone asks me the same questions, and I always give the same response. It gets tiring. Crew has been a bitch. I have to go and I don't even do any thing most of the night, yet I have to be there at 5 and sit around until 10:40 or so. But I guess it's nice because I get to see Aaron for a few split seconds until he has to run off to the sound board. I also get to chill with Katie and Nioami (god I'm such a dumbass, how do you spell her name?), which is awesome as well. I like sneaking off and biking to burgerking in the rain to get us dinner.

I didn't go to school today. I slept until 4 because of going to bed around 12 am or so on Monday, then going to bed at 12 am on Wednesday. And I'm up, and it's 3:15. I can't help being an insomniac.

I dyed my hair tonight in stead of sleeping. I've been waiting to do that forever because I bought the shit a month ago. Ahhh, winter. It's normal with black underneath. I like it, though my nails and tips of my fingers are black because I lost the gloves.

Um, enough with that.

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[18 Oct 2004|08:01pm]
I'm in Australia now and I'm very, very jet lagged. I hope I get over my cold soon, but over here it's pretty cold and it's been pouring all day. Last night was an awful plane ride because this little brat woke me up only after I've been sleeping for and hour or so. The plane ride was 6 hours from JFK to LAX and then 4 hours in between the flight from LA to Sidney. The 15 hour plane ride would have been better if I could sleep on planes. I won't be able to get online much, but I'll try my best. I'll miss every one for 2 weeks!

Love ya!
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[12 Oct 2004|03:54pm]
[ mood | sick ]

So, today was a constant struggle with my sore throat and runny nose. It suckes, especailly in last period when I had to stand there and blow my nose for about 2 minutes before it stopped. Anyway, I'm pround of my boyfriend, and myself because of our good grades (hooray for ungrounding Aaron!) other acheivments, and the fact that I did my annoying history assignment as soon as I got home.

Dad's here, off to working again.

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[08 Oct 2004|10:16pm]
[ mood | pissed off and meloncholy WTF? ]

Why the fuck do I feel like such a loser?














Maybe that shouldn't be a question...

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[07 Oct 2004|12:47pm]
[ mood | happy and headachey ]

How come everyday feels like friday?

I guess that's a good thing though, but bad once you realize that it's not quite the weekend.

I'm leaving to go to Australia on October 16th, and that means that I'm missing out on taking the PSATS...oh no! Haha, anyways, today was a good day. I just need to get some sleep now, but I have a feeling that's not really happening until Sunday night because thank god for Columbus day.

Off to practice guitar

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